After what happened today, suddenly felt my issue is so trivial. Also felt so helpless, coz there is nothing I can offer to anyone. Felt a sense of sorrow that is not my own... A little strange...

Anyway, I've got my decision. Not sure where it came from. But it had nothing to do with anyone; it wasnt based on
any advice or opinions. So if there were any regrets, I would only have myself to blame. And I guess I'm fine with that.