Again I thought I was okay but started feeling sad again when I think of cookie. Wonder when the tears will stop. Losing things, people. I wonder if it gets easier with time. I seem to keep losing things/people these days. Perhaps things can only get better now. Some losses may turn out to be gains. Some people are not meant for keeps. Maybe my tolerance is wearing thin. there are people who constantly make you feel you are lesser, it’s painful but I’m cutting you loose.
Memory’s deteriorating these days. Getting a tad worried that there might be something wrong with me. The forgetfulness is too scary. I have a hard time recalling things I was thinking about just three seconds ago. What’s scarier is the frequency of it. I’m not sure if it’s coz I’m just constantly overwhelmed. Whether it’s coz of the multi-tasking. Multi tasking used to be glorified but now it has been relegated to a dirty word. My attention span is now so short that it’s appalling. I can no longer follow through a thought or focus long enough to process complex information, and reading books now take forever. Gone are the days when I can go for hours just reading. I really need to overhaul my entire life.
