I thought things will be better once I decided but i still feel this deep sadness. Will I regret? Did I willingly choose to walk away from a good thing ? Why is it so hard to make a firm decision ? Why can’t I just leave with excitement and hope for the future? Who knows what tomorrow will bring? Yet I stubbornly want to control and weigh everything. I hate this so much. Why did I even apply for the job? Couldn’t I have been contented with just staying put, not progressing, not growing, not doing anything new? But I just feel this sense of restlessness. Would taking a break have been all that I had needed?