Some truths are plain to see,
But we get blinded by our fears.
Everyone else around us sees things more clearly than we ourselves can. Are we less intuitive about ourselves than others are? I think we all have this wall of denial, a form of defense mechanism that protects us from pain. But is it worth it? Avoiding pain but then at the end of our lives, realizing we have lived in vain.
I am afraid, very afraid of everything that is to come once the rock falls over my head. That rock I've decided to throw but not quite sure how to throw it, to give it the softest landing.... Can I take everything in my stride?

Sometimes I feel like a fraud, living a lie. Everyday pretending. Trying to live another life but doesn't yet know how. Looking for answers but can't find any. Coming to a standstill. Grasping at straws. I need a change. Unsure of which path to take. Which direction to turn.

"... you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God's place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things."

I really like this quote from into the wild but sorta half agree and half disagree about it.
I think at the end near death he realized the importance of having human relationships. He said happiness is real when shared. How sad...

The wedding song - bob dylan

I love you more than ever, more than time and more than love
I love you more than money and more than the stars above
Love you more than madness, more than waves upon the sea
Love you more than life itself, you mean that much to me

Ever since you walked right in, the circle’s been complete
I’ve said goodbye to haunted rooms and faces in the street
To the courtyard of the jester which is hidden from the sun
I love you more than ever and I haven’t yet begun

You breathed on me and made my life a richer one to live
When I was deep in poverty you taught me how to give
Dried the tears up from my dreams and pulled me from the hole
Quenched my thirst and satisfied the burning in my soul

You gave me babies one, two, three, what is more, you saved my life
Eye for eye and tooth for tooth, your love cuts like a knife
My thoughts of you don’t ever rest, they’d kill me if I lie
I’d sacrifice the world for you and watch my senses die

The tune that is yours and mine to play upon this earth
We’ll play it out the best we know, whatever it is worth
What’s lost is lost, we can’t regain what went down in the flood
But happiness to me is you and I love you more than blood

It’s never been my duty to remake the world at large
Nor is it my intention to sound a battle charge
’Cause I love you more than all of that with a love that doesn’t bend
And if there is eternity I’d love you there again

Oh, can’t you see that you were born to stand by my side
And I was born to be with you, you were born to be my bride
You’re the other half of what I am, you’re the missing piece
And I love you more than ever with that love that doesn’t cease

You turn the tide on me each day and teach my eyes to see
Just bein’ next to you is a natural thing for me
And I could never let you go, no matter what goes on
‘Cause I love you more than ever now that the past is gone

The lyrics to this song are beautiful, so full of love. But we all know how well this love ended.... Is love mostly a moment of
folly?

I'm an OS

Saw an ad today- a group of folks gathered at a dinner table but all were busy with their gadgets. It's certainly not an uncommon scene these days. Einstein once said he feared the day that technology would surpass human interaction. Such a visionary that man. The time has come now. It kinda reminded me of the movie "Her". Many people in our lives have started to become like OS-es. We don't meet, we don't talk, we whatsapp, we send short electronic messages, we send emails, really what's the difference between an intelligent electronic system and a real person? I guess the OS in the film has even one-upped most of our interactions these days. At least it has a voice. These days zilch... Kinda wishing we could rewind time....
Convenience comes at a price and the price seems a tad too heavy. We are a many walls removed from each other now.
But the thing is if I were to stop all messaging, not return messages, people would probably think I'm being an uncaring ass. I don't even know now how to start a phone conversation with friends when it had came so easily in the past. I still remember the times when we would call each other and chat late into the night. And even sang songs over the phone. Funny times. All gone now. Who has the time for these things these days?

I've got no rhythm and rhyme
I've got no reason and time
To walk along behind
Someone so fine.

We live we die

People were born into the world
People were born to die
How we live
How we die
What does it matter?
Where we live
Where we die
What does it matter?
You and I
We are both the same
We breathe the same air
We eat
We drink
We laugh
We cry
We live
We die.
There is no complexity
Everything is uncomplicated.
It is very simple actually.
We live
We die.
You and I
We are both the same.
A simple truth
We can't deny.

Half the perfect life
Half the perfect lie
Half the perfect dream