And I dreamt you were gone.
When I woke.
I realized it was real.
Not a shadow of you
Left.
In this empty room.
In this empty house.
But you are still there
Beating with my heart.
This crazy push pull
Wanting to expel you
Thoroughly from my life
Yet, wanting so much
That you will stay.
I have to remind myself
That you were never mine
To begin with.
I have lost you.
Because we were both driven by fears.
They say,
You do not need courage
To drive away your fears
That you all need is love.
Perhaps we have never loved.
Perhaps fear has won
And conquered love.
And so, we admit defeat
And say our goodbyes.