Re-reading Sophie’s World. It amazes me how Democritus could through pure thoughts, derive at the atom theory. 

On another note, it also amazes me the length people would go just to get what they want. The schemes, the deceits, planting toxicity. Is it really worth that kind of effort to play mind games to attain your goal. Wouldn’t it be so much more honorable to attain something based purely on your own merit? Do connections really matter that much? Does creating a picture perfect image of yourself mean that you have to bring everyone else down? Is it even necessary to make yourself out to be perfect? Ain’t imperfections so much more real? Is it a matter of pride and egoism to make up lies just coz your advances had been spurned? Human beings can be so scary at times. 

Breath of dream

 The beauty of yesterdays,

Faded.

Came to believe that,

Nothing lasts forever. 

Here for a moment,

Thought I tasted eternity.

It was gone,

Temporal,

Like a breath of dream. 

Faceless, nameless crowds,

Silenced the whispers 

That threatened to shatter the cacophony. 

What was heard was unheard

What was seen was unseen

The burden is meant for one to bear.

What a fool to believe,

The goodness, the goodness,

It’s a lie that lives in fairy tales.

Sometimes I wonder why the person who initiates a break up gets blamed and casted in a bad light. Is the person who wants to leave a relationship always to blame? Perhaps that person deserves a pat on the back instead for being mature and brave enough to end things rather than dragging things on just for the sake of being responsible/kind. 

Sometimes we hear people lament oh but s/he didn’t do anything wrong, s/he is such a good person.. xyz must be really bad/stupid to dump him/her. I wonder if it’s crueler to carry on a relationship with someone knowing that s/he isn’t the right one? Aren’t we short-changing that person ? 

I wonder why it’s so hard to do the right thing. Perhaps of society’s judgment, perhaps of fear, perhaps of the unknown, perhaps of all the things we’ve accumulated that need to be cut off from our lives.... 

Perhaps true love is one that defies reason and one that you just can’t place your finger on. Pretty much like how one is drawn to a particular prose, a certain city, movie, bookstore...you just don’t know why. 

Shakespeare and company- a history of the rag and bone shop of the heart

 Glad that I bought this book. A very charming read so far especially that of the owner (after Sylvia beach) George Whitman’s travel journal. The entries spoke of a man with socialist idealism, of heart, adventures, relentless pursuit of knowledge, bibliophile, sensitivity...if only there are more of such people in the world. Perhaps this is the very reason why his bookstore outlived him and is much loved by many. I too can’t place my finger on why I am so enamored with the bookstore after visiting it just once and at a time when it was rather crowded, one barely had space to walk.  

Above the bookstore was this famous quote lifted from the book of hebrews 13:2

Be not inhospitable to strangers, lest they be angels in disguise.  

I guess it’s little things like this that reminds us of our humanity and which lends the bookstore its charm

Fair weather

 I suppose sometimes people are placed into your life for you to learn something.

I’ve learned somehow that some pple are never quite truly reliable friends coz well, relationships are mainly transactional or there, to serve a purpose for some people. 

I dislike fair weather friends. People who demand your time and effort in their time of need and desperation but who are never there, when you need them. People who get on their moral high horses simply because of their own convenience and needs. Do these people truly care about morals, be it yours or theirs, if it serves their purpose? Yes everything is deserving of moral justification because it doesn’t fit into their schedule but when it suits their needs, everything else is fair game.

I’m beginning to doubt my own judgment when I’ve always been so confident of reading people. I guess maybe this time I’ve been wrong. Sometimes people justify every action and nonchalance to their own benefit and to perhaps, hide their true ugly nature from themselves.