https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=noptuCwqEx4&sns=em
Stumbled upon this piece again and I am not sure why it evokes images of riding a bicycle and the feeling of riding one. From a slow pedaling on a straight road to an exhilarating ride upslope, feeling the wind in your hair, before winding down a gentle slope towards home.
Thursday, February 16, 2017
Wednesday, February 15, 2017
happiness
Sometimes the presence of someone is enough to make one happy. Is such happiness the purest? When that someone need not do anything special- no gravitations, no stimulation, no flowery words, no gifts of frankincense, myrrh, or gold. Just a presence was enough. But is such happiness sustainable? We always end up wanting something, expecting something.
These days relationships are "quid pro quo"-based- what can you give me, what can I give you, I did this for you, so I expect this from you. Cold, hard love.
There was something else I wanted to write about but it had fled from my memory... sigh... old age...
Was missing Lazarus this morning. Wishing I have time off to spend a morning there picnicking with a good book.
Finished haruki murakami's wind up bird chronicles, read portions of Paul Theroux 's tao of travel, and just started on Virginia Woolf's diary. Woolf wrote beautifully. I love her prose.
She wrote it in the "stream of consciousness" style as she herself claimed likewise. The pros of such writing is that it is totally uncensored and the cons is that it can seem like ramblings of nothing in significance. I like her thoughts, her observations; there's a certain sagaciousness in her writing. Shall leave my thoughts about the book for the actual book review.
Sister's cat died today and I teared while thinking about it. Should we not have nor love in order to escape pain? Sometimes that fear of losing overpowers us and we abandon the chance to love.
These days relationships are "quid pro quo"-based- what can you give me, what can I give you, I did this for you, so I expect this from you. Cold, hard love.
There was something else I wanted to write about but it had fled from my memory... sigh... old age...
Was missing Lazarus this morning. Wishing I have time off to spend a morning there picnicking with a good book.
Finished haruki murakami's wind up bird chronicles, read portions of Paul Theroux 's tao of travel, and just started on Virginia Woolf's diary. Woolf wrote beautifully. I love her prose.
She wrote it in the "stream of consciousness" style as she herself claimed likewise. The pros of such writing is that it is totally uncensored and the cons is that it can seem like ramblings of nothing in significance. I like her thoughts, her observations; there's a certain sagaciousness in her writing. Shall leave my thoughts about the book for the actual book review.
Sister's cat died today and I teared while thinking about it. Should we not have nor love in order to escape pain? Sometimes that fear of losing overpowers us and we abandon the chance to love.
Sunday, February 12, 2017
Seven years in Tibet- Heinrich Harrer
Couldn't escape the snare of this book that I had to disrupt Long Walk to Freedom (sorry Nelson!) for it.
really enjoyed the book, especially at the beginning, when Harrer broke out of POW camp and started on his journey to Tibet from India. I remembered feeling my heart racing when he and Aufschnaiter(my god, the name!) ran into the Kampas (ruthless bandits of Tibet) and thankfully, outwitted them unharmed. Without a permit, Aufschnaiter and Harrer often had to travel in ungodly hours to avoid attention and lie through their teeth to get from one city to another- their ultimate destination was Lhasa. I was truly amazed at how they could survive trekking through merciless terrain and weather, and at high altitude without proper equipment and clothing and with minimal food. When they got to Lhasa, the story fell into a lull, without much excitement but it was still entertaining enough to keep me going. Harrer eventually became a mentor to the young and curious Dalai lama who was eager to know more about the world outside of Tibet. After reading the book, I searched for the award winning movie and was duly disappointed. I didn't finish the film.
4/5
really enjoyed the book, especially at the beginning, when Harrer broke out of POW camp and started on his journey to Tibet from India. I remembered feeling my heart racing when he and Aufschnaiter(my god, the name!) ran into the Kampas (ruthless bandits of Tibet) and thankfully, outwitted them unharmed. Without a permit, Aufschnaiter and Harrer often had to travel in ungodly hours to avoid attention and lie through their teeth to get from one city to another- their ultimate destination was Lhasa. I was truly amazed at how they could survive trekking through merciless terrain and weather, and at high altitude without proper equipment and clothing and with minimal food. When they got to Lhasa, the story fell into a lull, without much excitement but it was still entertaining enough to keep me going. Harrer eventually became a mentor to the young and curious Dalai lama who was eager to know more about the world outside of Tibet. After reading the book, I searched for the award winning movie and was duly disappointed. I didn't finish the film.
4/5
Friday, February 10, 2017
Thursday, February 9, 2017
The weaver
The weaver of my dreams,
It is you who have trampled on all that had been precious.
The dreams that had once been sweet,
Are nothing but crumbling dust now.
To whom, does your heart belong?
One can no longer tell.
The shadows you cast,
The fabric of lies you weave.
Into a hopeless pool,
I fell,
Deeper and deeper
Till the point of no return.
Weaver of my dreams,
My weaver,
My reaper.
It is you who have trampled on all that had been precious.
The dreams that had once been sweet,
Are nothing but crumbling dust now.
To whom, does your heart belong?
One can no longer tell.
The shadows you cast,
The fabric of lies you weave.
Into a hopeless pool,
I fell,
Deeper and deeper
Till the point of no return.
Weaver of my dreams,
My weaver,
My reaper.
Friday, February 3, 2017
Been lazy these days. Finished the 7 years in Tibet a long while back but never got around to writing the review. Haven't had the time to reflect either. These days, in a blink of the eye, months have gone by. There's just so little time left for myself.
Not in the best of mood today. I wish we could all see things through unbiased lens but the truth is, our perceptions will always be colored by our past experiences, feelings, etc. it's always hard for me to respect someone whom I feel shows favoritism or biases but then again, who doesn't have favorites? Even parents can't help themselves but favor one child over the other. I guess I am just upset at the injustice of it all.
At times, I feel like closing all doors and for everyone else to just leave me alone. things are boiling over and I've no idea what to do but to sweep everything under the carpet and pretend the elephant in the room doesn't exist. It's easier that way.
I've been too weary to respond to messages from church friends. It's funny how this is the group I run away from when I am not feeling my best. This is also the group that every little thing makes me feel
as if I am expending tremendous effort. This is so wrong as I am drifting further and further away from the only thing that is eternal and real and uncomplicated. I feel like dropping everything and just slink away in defeat. Others are crossing rivers and mountains just to have a glimpse of God and yet, I am crossing rivers and oceans just to run in the opposite direction. The irony.
I hope this mood will pass.
Not in the best of mood today. I wish we could all see things through unbiased lens but the truth is, our perceptions will always be colored by our past experiences, feelings, etc. it's always hard for me to respect someone whom I feel shows favoritism or biases but then again, who doesn't have favorites? Even parents can't help themselves but favor one child over the other. I guess I am just upset at the injustice of it all.
At times, I feel like closing all doors and for everyone else to just leave me alone. things are boiling over and I've no idea what to do but to sweep everything under the carpet and pretend the elephant in the room doesn't exist. It's easier that way.
I've been too weary to respond to messages from church friends. It's funny how this is the group I run away from when I am not feeling my best. This is also the group that every little thing makes me feel
as if I am expending tremendous effort. This is so wrong as I am drifting further and further away from the only thing that is eternal and real and uncomplicated. I feel like dropping everything and just slink away in defeat. Others are crossing rivers and mountains just to have a glimpse of God and yet, I am crossing rivers and oceans just to run in the opposite direction. The irony.
I hope this mood will pass.
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