Hurry up and wait

 http://www.brainpickings.org/2015/04/07/hurry-up-and-wait-daniel-handler-maira-kalman/

What I miss most from FB is brainpickings' snippets. 

I thought the quote was pretty cute and I like the picture as well. 

Logos

"The question was whether an ape which was being used to develop poliomyelitis serum, and for this reason punctured again and again would ever be able to grasp the meaning of its suffering. Unanimously the group replied that of course it would not; with its limited intelligence, it could not enter the world of men.... What about men?are you sure the human world is a terminal point in the evolution of the cosmos? Is it not conceivable that there is still another dimension... A world in which the question of an ultimate meaning of human suffering would find an answer?"

Viktor Frankl- Man's search for meaning of life 

I thought this was quite mind-blowing even though I've encountered this theory or reasoning quite frequently, especially during bible studies. The mystery of our sufferings, experiences, meanings, etc are beyond our grasps and it is only because our minds have not attained the level needed to understand God's work and purpose. Although this may sound very pompous to some, I think we can only grasp the truth/ see the meaning in things when we enter His kingdom. 

The pirate

He has traversed the seven seas

Always searching

But never finding.

The treasures are hidden from his eyes,

Buried deep beneath the tumbling waves. 

A pirate he is, 

His eyes always wandering,

His heart always lusting

For that Treasure Island which he once heard of. 

But it is a myth,

A tale conjured by an old fool.

And he who wanders

Will never find.

Those feet of his

Will never touch land

And those hands will never touch gold,

And the pirate, he loses more than he can gain. 

"Set me like a seal upon thy heart, love is as strong as death."

"How do you want to die?" He asked her. She looked at him, suddenly pensive. "I do not know. In a romantic way I guess. Like a Shakespearean tragedy." 

"Everything is meaningless under the sun."

So says Solomon.

Sometimes I feel the same way. Everything that we do or say, they are all meaningless. Where do they lead us eventually? when I get this way, all I want to do is to be a recluse. People only bring sorrows, anger, and all these petty emotions. 

The thoughts of leaving church came to my mind for no apparent reason and I get a feeling of dread when I remembered that I'd to go coz of Sunday school duties, and that i had agreed to bring someone there for the musical today. Even more so when I remembered I had signed up for church camp. Maybe I'm not supposed to run away from God. It kinda struck me as funny that in times of emotional turmoil, I want to run away from God rather than closer to Him.

Deleting my Facebook account had been on my mind for some time and after not having connection for a while in China, I thought that one could jolly well live without it (or so I hope). 

I am not sure how such a decision became lodged in my mind. Maybe I just want to disappear for a while. Maybe I want to shut down this space too. 

Everything and everyone wears me out with their complexities.