Feeling frustrated...although it's the sem break, i dont think it was a real break in any sense of the word. collected data today, joining study group tomorrow, and tons of reading to catch up on. Was real disappointed with the quiz results I received today although it was slightly above (a real slight one) the median score. I was kinda expecting to score on this one but alas, one should not be over-confident.
I'm really not sure how else I could do better.

Sem break this week.. think i did horribly for piano exam..why do i suffer from performance anxiety? arghh
Borrowed three books from the library- toni morrison's beloved, Haruki Murakami's The strange library (for obvious reasons), and Jack London's Call of the Wild and White Fang.
Wonder if I am being a tad ambitious to want to read all these during sem break, while playing catch up with school work and projects... Falling way behind in class.
no inspiration to write anything...wanted to watch Tom Hank's California Typewriter but couldnt find it anywhere... He published a fictional work recently but I read a preview of it and found it a little stiff.
Would love to own a typewriter one of these days...
Havent found anything interesting to obsess about these days and my hobbies have been pared down to the occasional piano and ukulele playing and calligraphy.
I'm boring myself to death.
Thinking of visiting somewhere in the next sem break but not sure if I could get away...Somewhere cold would be nice.

It's gonna be another crazy week. Took a short breather yesterday after the test and then it's back to rushing out assignment and projects. Doesn't help that piano exam is on this Thursday.
I feel like I've split myself up too much- work, school, piano, church, research, family, friends and that I am failing on all aspects because there is just no way I can catch up on everything.
Cant wait for the week to be over.


You and your mysterious ways,
All the things I cannot grasp.
I would have sailed with you to the ends of the world,
to count the sunsets and the stars,
to lose our ways and then more.
But then I woke and realised,
I am in this dream alone.

Just wanna bundle up and read books.....

I've gone back to writing in an actual journal albeit a little inconsistently. I realized my handwriting has changed over the years although I can't really say if it's for the better or for worse. Anyways the horrible illegible writing comes back to haunt me at tests/exams. I've no idea how to control my hand under pressure.
Been whining too much over the lack of time. I need to get over it seriously and stop getting distracted by a million and one things.
Been thinking about food a lil too much when I'm studying. I don't know why. Studying makes one hungry ☹️

lyrics- sunsetz

Sun sets, I want to hear your voice
A love that nobody could destroy
Took photographs like Brautigan's
Book covers that we both adored

And when you go away, I still see you
The sunlight on your face in my rearview
This always happens to me this way
Recurring visions of such sweet days

And when you go away, I still see you
The sunlight on your face in my rearview
When you go away, I still see you
The sunlight on your face in my rearview


I really like the chorus.. when you go away i still see u.. the sunlight on your face in my rear view...

Schedule's been insane. Thought I would have time to pursue hobbies during the day before school but it has just been assignment after assignment, reading after reading. Barely have time to do anything else.
I wish to paint more, write more, and read more, perhaps will have to wait till December when school's out for a while.
Wonder when I can go traveling again. December would be a nice time to visit Europe again with its' Christmas markets. Nothing beats a cup of vin chaud in winter.

Let us disappear for a while
Into the twilight
The bewitching hour of the in-betweens,
Where we wait for the gentle moonlight.
Sorrows will be forgotten
Laughters begotten
Just you and I,
The in-betweens.