In sickness and in health

Oftentimes we paint the perfect picture of our future. Brushing aside the possibilities that perhaps the future’s not gonna be as rosy as we thought it would be.

I wonder how many of us would be willing to shoulder the burdens of “in sickness”. Would we begin to see the caregiving as burdens or acts of true love.
Are we there for only the good times? Do we love someone because of their “worth” to us, because we need them, whether it’s for the company, the entertainment, or simply because they love us more.

During this time, I began to see who are the ones who only pay lip service and who are the ones to really step up and shoulder all the responsibilities because they truly care. I begin to see who are the dependable ones and who are the ones whose shadows you could barely glimpse because there’s nothing in it for them.

You chased after the wind because you believe there’s true joy in doing so.
You chased after the wind because that’s the only way you know.
You chased after the wind because you no longer believe in love that’s pure.
You chased after the wind because the whole world’s on it.

motorcycle diaries -- Che Guevera

just started on this book, while being halfway through chasing the last laugh, which narrates Mark Twain's journey round the world being a stand up comedian to clear his debts during his silver years. Never knew he was a comedian.
Anyway back to che... it just strikes me how fearless he and alberto were, dropping out of school and travelling around latin america with barely a dime to their name, on a dingy motorbike. I think these days one can hardly find people like that. We have all been conditioned to think that our life course should be graduate from college, find a job, get married, buy a house, have kids, earn enough to retire. We crave safety, routine, comfort. and it's so easy to get trapped in this cycle. once u earn a certain amount of salary, acquire things, it becomes difficult to let them go even when we know these things hold no real value. We chase after what everyone else wants, what everyone thinks are important, never stopping once to reflect if these are the things our hearts desire too, and what they really mean to us.
How do we get out of this rat race? i dont know.

been on a slippery slope for the longest time
without God at the centre of your life
one chases after all the wrong things
making all the wrong decisions
for a moment's pleasure
for a moment's folly.