by the lake

"I just want to be free! Why do we have to be what others want and expect us to be?  Say the right things, do the right things, wear the right clothes, get the right job, get married, live in the right neigbourhood, have 2.5 kids, stick around boring parties! This engagement ring? Why, it is nothing but a well-played DeBeers marketing campaign! Honeymoon? Isn't it another trick by airline companies and travel agents? We are just puppets of capitalism! I just want to be free, free from the burdens of society!" she raged on and then threw the ring at Carl and raced up the long flight of stairs.
She threw a few change of clothes into her leather suitcase and ran out of the house with the white picket fence.
She didnt look back, not even once. Her steps were determined as they brought her frantically to an abandoned cabin by the lake.
She stood there by the lake, took a deep breath and started counting.
One, two, three, four, five....
Tears gathered in her eyes.
She looked up at the skies and then, smiled.

forever scares me still. I wonder what if the choices we make stay with us forever? and I do not mean just this lifetime. What if we live forever, as our faith says we would? Will we still make the same choices? will we even dare to make any decisions, I wonder?
What if the career path I choose now, goes on forever, and I no longer have the ability to change the course once this lifetime ends, and the next begins? What if the life partner we choose now is bind to us truly forever, and not just for this lifetime, would we still choose him/her?  Would we be less hasty in our life choices if we could see forever?

sadness seeps into my bones
in the distance i hear the church bells toll
into eternity you walk,
While I am left standing,
waiting,
in the darkness.

My lips are forever sealed,
the truth i am forbade to tell.
Peace eludes me,
And in that chaos, the battle is lost.
We bled and there is no victor.