We found our goodbyes in the silences.
To distant places, we go
Our ships set sail,
to different corners of the world.
No longer in the same universe,
You and I, we drift,
in the sea of silences we create.

A place beyond

We search for purity in a tainted world,
search for a shimmer of light
In a world shrouded in darkness.
Always searching, never finding.
Bright-eyed hopefuls that we are
But hopelessness trips us.
They tell of a secret place,
where purity lies,
few ever found it,
because we are often blind.
We are fools,
wallowing in our self-deceits,
wanting, yearning,
for things beyond our reach.
Wanting, yearning,
to satiate our selfish needs.
They secretly laugh at the hopeless fools,
what's right before their eyes,
they will never find.
For they are blinded by their own shadows,
tripped by their own deeds.

Smoke and mirrors

And we busy ourselves with the things that may us feel important
But are we really?
Smoke and mirrors
We live in a make-believe world.
Smoke and mirrors
We see what we want to see,
Hear what we want to hear.
We speak meaningless words
Laugh at the emptiness we create.
Silent the secret screams
That sometimes want to be heard
That sometimes ache to deafen.
Smoke and mirrors
We live in a make-believe world.
This is how we want it to be
This is how we could live our lie.
A lie, a life,
Separated by smoke and mirrors.

And I continue to dream my lavender dreams

Craving for steak and red wine... but alas I broke the bottle of the newly bought wine.. bummer..
Finished reading Alfred sommer’s ten lessons in PH. Very entertaining and inspiring read. It managed to bring excitement to the dreary epidemiological study and breathe life to data. Oftentimes when faced with a database, we tend to forget that behind each row of numbers, lies a person. Sometimes we detract from what’s really important -betterment of people’s lives and expend too much energy on KPIs- publications and what not. Perhaps we are just too far removed from patients to see the impact of our work (even if we just play a meager role).
Anyway Sommer made research seems like an adventure. He was a nomadic researcher of sorts and travelled and stayed in far flung places (at that time) and seeing first hand how his data transformed the lives of the beneficiaries. I also admire his tenacity in banging on doors and tables till real policy changes/ recommendations are made.